My inspiration!

My daily inspiration is my one and only mother. My mother is my inspiration because she is truly the strongest woman I have ever met and I love her with all my heart. My mother has made plenty of mistakes and has made me nearly hate her at times but I would not have it any other way. She is my best friend and I know that I can come to her about anything. My mother is the most inspiring person because she can be extremely unhappy and still have a smile on her face. Despite what she has gone through she still remains strong and determined to be the best person she can be. We have a strange relationship and we have more of a friend relationship rather than a mother daughter one. She drives me crazy everyday but she also inspires me to be a better person. My mom has not made the best choices in her life, which is probably why she does not have the easiest life or health now. For a couple years now, my mother has been very sick with cancer and other health threatening problems. I look up to my mom and I learn from her mistakes. I look at the mistakes she has made and I take that knowledge she has acquired and apply it to my everyday life. My mom inspires me to be a better person and to make better choices in life than she did. To me, she is the perfect role model and mommy.

If you had the choice, where would you choose to live?

If I could live anywhere I would live in a country-like area over in Clarksdale, Mississippi. I have lived in many different areas with different surroundings and environments growing up. I grew up in foster homes for quite a bit of my childhood and even when I did not I still moved around a lot of the time. The last foster home I was in became my family. I fell in love with my home, my family, our neighborhood and everything about where I was living. I lived in so many different places and never have I been happier than when I lived in a country environment. I love country music, I love country people, I love it all and I want more than anything to surround myself with the things I love. I want to finish school, start my career as a nurse and then move into the country. As I grow older, I hope to also raise my children this way. I would choose to move to Clarksdale Mississippi because I have visited Clarksdale and I absolutely loved everything about that town.  My biological parents hate the way I have become obsessed with the thought of living a country lifestyle because that is clearly not how they intended on raising me. Majority of my family are all city folk. I never liked living in the city; I want to live in an area where I have land to go and do and to just be free! I am taking the steps that I need to today, to help my follow my dreams tomorrow.

What would you do if money was no object?

What would you do if money was no object?

This project really helped me see and understand that there is truly more to people than meets the eye. After interviewing my friends I saw that I really have incredible people in my life who all have endless potential. The kind of answers that my friends and family gave me couldn't have impressed or surprised me more. I'm am very happy with the answers that I received. I hope that each and every person in the video follows their dreams as if money wasn't an object. Happiness is one of the only things that truly matter in life. Money can't buy happiness.

My favorite book is "13 Reasons Why" By: Jay Asher

My favorite book would have to be, 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher. I don't really read often so it is strange for me to have chosen a favorite book. I read this book about two years ago during summer, while I was involved in a summer reading program. I chose to read this book because a friend of mine had recommended that I read it. This book really sparked my interest because of the story line and how vivid all the mental images and feelings were. 13 Reasons Why, is about a girl who recorded a bunch of tapes right before she commits suicide. On the tapes she recorded, she explained her thirteen reasons for ending her life. The person who was given the tapes was instructed to listen to all the tapes on pass them on to the next person. If they did not, there were consequences they would face if they hadn't followed the rules. The girl had made a second set of tapes to be put out publicly if someone discontinued passing them on. The tapes explained how she felt, what she went through as well as the people she went through it with. I really enjoy books like this because the story line really keeps you on your toes and intrigues you to continue reading until the very last page. At the time when I read the book, I had been a pretty depressed person myself so, I really felt that this book spoke to me. I would recommend everyone to read this book at least once, especially young teens!

Life is too short to live with regrets

In my short lived life of only 16 years, I have grown to believe that I have experienced many tragic and life changing things. There has been many times where I have said to myself things such as, "I wish I hadn't had done that" or, "I wish that never happened." Though I have never really been faced with the actual question about something that I regret or would take back, simply because that just does not happen in life. I have been through so much in my short life that it is really hard to pin point one particular thing. Sitting here writing this, is really giving me the opportunity to think deeply about mistakes I have made, or promises I have broken. There are many thing I wish I could take back or prevented from happening though, most things ave been beyond my control. Something that I could have controlled was whether or not I chose to go home. Today I live with my mother, brother and now step-dad Tom. I have been home for a few years now and just like any family we have our ups and downs. I really miss my old family though. A few years ago, I was about 8 years old and placed into a foster home. This wasn't like any other foster home because they are honestly considered my family. I miss them more than anything and they have influenced me to be a better person and do well in all that I do. I was always given all the things I needed as well as most of the things I wanted! Before then, I have never had an actual family. Even though now I see how much better off I was, and how happy and healthy I was. Being as young as I was, my mother was my world. I missed my mom more than anything! I wish I would have known what I know now, because maybe I would not have made the same decision. Don't get me wrong, I love my mother and my family with all of my heart but I will always have that doubt in my mind. Doubt about myself, my brother and my mother. Would we all be better off? Would my brother have dropped out of high school? Would I struggle with the things that I do? Would I still be in Early College? Would I still leave in such a poor beat down neighborhood? Would my mother be healthier? All these things almost always cloud my mind. Though this is something I'll never know. I am not sure that I regret my decision, I just do not like not knowing. The decision my brother and I made not only affected me, it effected everybody. My brother, my mom and especially my foster family. These people were planning on adopting us and it is said that their family fell apart once we left, due to heartbreak  My foster parents split up, they quit fostering and now the whole family is set up on scheduled visits. I regret making the decision. I regret not knowing.

My favorite Hobby

There are many things I enjoy doing, things you could call hobbies.

It is a pretty funny thing how this blog post came about at this time. 

This is a very appropriate topic for me to write about right now considering that fact that I am currently switching up my hobbies. I recently went through a major lifestyle change, in my opinion, and I am hoping to turn it around and make the best of it. Going through what I have recently gone through, I realized that I have not only been neglecting my health, but neglecting my feelings as well. I have lost many things but I am learning even more. The best part about making mistakes is fixing and learning from them. Anyhow, I'm changing my number one hobby to improving my health. This includes eating healthy, exercising and just improving my overall being physically and mentally. I not only want to get into shape, but I want to be healthy inside my head as well. I want to be happy with myself, and stop letting the little things get to me and depress me. My brother and I are working on this project together and both of us have similar goals. I am really determined to accomplish these goals because it is very important to be a happy and healthy individual.

Musics in my Soul

            My favorite genre of music would probably have to be country. I absolutely love country music. I did not grow up around this type of music because it does not really appeal to the rest of my family. I grew up around various kinds of rap music and even a little rock. I like country music for a few different reasons besides the obvious. I think most country music sends a good message. Country music is usually more from the heart and how the writer is feeling, as opposed to rap music which is mostly about drugs, sex, money, etc. To me it is quite frustrating how someone can put a bunch of random, worthless and pointless words together and call it “music.” Do not get me wrong though; some rap and R&B artists are pretty good. The ones that actually care about their music, anyhow, country still comes first. I feel that I can really relate to a lot of country music because most of the time, it is true. Many country artists speak from their hearts and experiences. I enjoy singing, and writing music as well and country music really inspires me. 

I love many country artists such as, Miranda Lambert, Blake Shelton, Luke Bryan, Jason Aldean, and many others. Though, my all-time favorite country artist would have to be the American Idol winner, Carrie Underwood. Not only do I love Carrie’s music, but I have just grown to love her overall. Carrie’s personality is just utterly adorable and I love her attitude, her message, where she comes from and all. I have looked up to Carrie for a while now and I truly believe she is a great role model. Carrie has all kinds of different songs on all four of her albums. I think Carrie can sing about pretty much anything. She has songs about love, lust, cheating, family, where she’s come from, partying, pretty much everything! I simply admire this woman and think she is just wonderful! Carrie’s music has gotten me through a lot of tough times because I feel like I can relate to her and I just can’t help but look up to her. Carrie Underwood is definitely my favorite country artist!  

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